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Sunday, October 15, 2006

Are you happy??????

This is the question one of my old college friends asked me yesterday.I am working with a very good company,i m more than satisfied with my work and work enviornment.My family is happy,I have no monetory problems,I have almost all the physical comforts i need at this age.
But frankly speaking i kept thinking atleast for a minute,and finally i managed with ,a mere "well yes......i think so."
This was not the truth.Because still I am skeptical as hell abou this.An honest answer would have been.."I dont know.".
But didnt dare say so.
So now I am forced to think "why the hell am I not sure of being happy?"
I could not have been thought of a better job than this atleast at this period of my life.
I have full family support.No love affairs or nothing foolish of the kind is troubling me.
then why??????????
I really dont know.
During my college days,i always used to think,one day i will have a job.i will have my own money.
I will be independent,free to come home at any time,daily i will eat something new,Monday Chinese,
Tuesday Muglai,wednesday Tandoori. and all...
I wilol be able to booze every weekend,have as many ciggetes as i wish during the day.
I have all of this now.But this no more feels like as it used to be in dreams.
why so????????????

I am afraid to tell this to God.as I think he will say....
"Dont come to me son.Your desires are infinite,once they are fulfilled you get new ones.I have more important issues than your filthy desires to take care of."
I just want to ask all you guys there.Is this the case with you?
I dont know I am saying all this ,but this is what i felt like saying.
Ending it abruptly.

"A very much confused Saurabh"

2 Comments:

At 15/10/06 12:00 , Blogger Sushant said...

Mind is always ruled by the urge to move ahead. It creates the karma and hence without it we don't exist nor will this earth. The unhappiness is not bad but a indication that physical objects will never provide eternal happiness.They die like all physical things. Sorry to bring sprituality in between but You should be glad that you are not happy and this will drive you on your Karmic path. I wish eternal lord will provide you the power to cross over from unhappiness to happiness.

Cheers
Sushant

 
At 16/9/08 05:29 , Anonymous Anonymous said...

You are not talking about happiness. You are looking for peace. Happiness is not a synonym for peace, peace is being one with oneself. Peace shows itself in the form of satisfaction, when you get it from the family love or from the girl you Love. May be this link will help you understand the difference

 

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