looking towards a nicotine free day

Hi Guys,

I have been a smoker for close to 6 years now.I dont remember why I started it.Though at different points of time I give different reasons to people.e.g. After breakup with girlfriend,due to tough engineering life, etc.
But honestly I dont know or remember what made me start smoking.

I have been reading about different methods to quit smoking for approx 3 months now.I have done some experiments and I always end up at square one.

Today for the first time I am listing out my reasons on a public blog,Starting from today I am saying No to ciggerettes.

why?What are my reasons?

1. I want to start waking up early ,that implies I need to goto sleep early,that is not possible untill I stop myself from taking a puff after 6 PM.
2. I have been looking into Pranayam and methods of Mantena Satyanarayan Raju online.I have been doing Pranayam irregularly for about an year now.Its is because of pranayama and some water drinking schedules prescribed my MS Raju that I have been able to mantain my weight at 80-85 kg.
3. If you want 100% out of your pranayam,you need to put an immediate stop to smoking.See ,benefits of Pranayam are related to 'prana' i.e. Oxygen which we breathe in and which helps our body in each and every function.Pranayam gives a lot of oxygen to your brain and body,which revitalizes the body and it's immunity system.By smoking you affect your lungs and the quality of oxygen present inside the body.Apart from that what you put is 100s of toxic tars and chemicals into the body.I want to get rid of it.I don't want to nullify my Pranayam effects.
4. I am fed up of maintaining the balance.
   We smokers have to keep a balance of number of cigarettes,i.e. I need minimum x number of ciggs everyday but it should not exceed y.If it exceeds y,sleeping and digestive patterns are disturbed.If i take less than x, again sleeping and digestive patterns get disturbed.So everyday I have to keep looking for that n i.e. x<=n<=y which keeps me normal.This takes a lot of time and mental energy which can be applied to a lot more creative things.Apart from that this number n keeps on increasing so maybe today n for you is 5,after 6 months or so it becomes 7 or 8 or maybe more.
5. Every family occasion,movie watching,going to parks/public places with my family brings along a tention for me,how will I smoke there?will I get 10 mins to just go out and have a fag.Will that park allow smoking,will there be panwalas.In short It destroys the fun /enthusiasm associated with going out just because I feel i can not smokie untill we are back.I want to change that and want to enjoy all the family outings and functions.
   
6. Last but not the least, financially... If I take a 7 ciggs a day it comes to 30Rs a day but ciggerettes are accompanied by tea and mints,so the expenditure goes to approx 50-60 Rs.Taking it at 60 Rs a day I spend 1800 RS in a month and 21600 Rs in a year so after marriage I have spent 86400 Rs.I could have bought a nice LED TV for this amount or a very good handy-cam or may be some good jewelery for my wife.Or I could have put it as a down-payment for my car or house which I plan/dream to buy.
7. There are number of occasions when your wife or someone who cares for you tries to stop you from having a cigarette,rarely We take it positively,mostly it ends up in an altercation causing stress for 2 or 3 forthcoming days.This stress again cause some more cigarettes.I ask myself is smoking worth all of this?
8. I want to show it to myself that I can be honest to myself.No one stops me from smoking these days,even my wife only reminds me that i am smoking a lot ,she never fights on this wid me.But this year I want to do this for myself 1. Bye Bye to nicotine 2.Welcome early rising

Thanks a lot if you have gone through all this.

Bye
keep coding

Long gap!!!!!!!!!!!

I am writing here after a year or so.Quite a long time.Getting married has proved to be a really really big change.The lifestyle has totally changed,something changed for good some for bad.So I dont get enough time for blogging.But I really want to maintain my blogs.
Lets see If I can maintain this?

Abhi Baaki Hain Hafte4

ya......still 31 days to go.It has affected my concentration a lot.I didnt know
that i would become like this,dont wanna EAT SLEEP STUDY WORK.
Just 1 thing..
hmmm....What can i say?
My mind has been captured,it is not in my Control.
Who is the Culprit..
--TWEETY---

Engaged!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so...........I am engaged now.Engagement is really a Phenomenon in life.It changes a lot of think.It brings a lot of maturity and It teaches u a lot bout life.It gives birth to many concerns and responsibilties too.But all that is
part of this beautiful package.I am really happy and am thankful to God and my Parents becuase of them only
I got such a nice girl.
Sometimes it looks like our arranged marriage(to be held on may 6th) is becoming a love marriage.
All u bachelors out there...listen to me...get engaged and maximum of your frustrations and feelings of
incompleteness will fly away.
Aur kya likhoon pata nahi.

Marriage

Hmm......
This is really hard to write about.I mean.....I dont know what to say.I am nowadays thinking about the time when i will be engaged/married.So many dreams kepp popping up in the mind.
Apart from that many curiosities play their part as well.
How will she be? how will she look? will she be Modern?Will she be Homely?Will she be ....
Hundreds of such things.
I personally respect the institution of marriage a lot.And though I m only 25 yrs old i m looking forward to this experience.I want to know how is it when someone ,who was unknown till today
becomes one of the most important persons in your life,who becomes the focus of your thoughts,
who becomes attached to you forever:-).
I dont know what is it all.
But i wanna know it.
May God show me all this soon.

Are you happy??????

This is the question one of my old college friends asked me yesterday.I am working with a very good company,i m more than satisfied with my work and work enviornment.My family is happy,I have no monetory problems,I have almost all the physical comforts i need at this age.
But frankly speaking i kept thinking atleast for a minute,and finally i managed with ,a mere "well yes......i think so."
This was not the truth.Because still I am skeptical as hell abou this.An honest answer would have been.."I dont know.".
But didnt dare say so.
So now I am forced to think "why the hell am I not sure of being happy?"
I could not have been thought of a better job than this atleast at this period of my life.
I have full family support.No love affairs or nothing foolish of the kind is troubling me.
then why??????????
I really dont know.
During my college days,i always used to think,one day i will have a job.i will have my own money.
I will be independent,free to come home at any time,daily i will eat something new,Monday Chinese,
Tuesday Muglai,wednesday Tandoori. and all...
I wilol be able to booze every weekend,have as many ciggetes as i wish during the day.
I have all of this now.But this no more feels like as it used to be in dreams.
why so????????????

I am afraid to tell this to God.as I think he will say....
"Dont come to me son.Your desires are infinite,once they are fulfilled you get new ones.I have more important issues than your filthy desires to take care of."
I just want to ask all you guys there.Is this the case with you?
I dont know I am saying all this ,but this is what i felt like saying.
Ending it abruptly.

"A very much confused Saurabh"

Questions (answered and unanswered)

 well....It happens with me a lot.I wonder if i am the only one to face all this.
there are so many questions  knocking the brain's door again n again,some of them
get entry find an answer,but some unfortunate ones keep on coming and dont get
an answer.when this quantity crosses a certain threshold you start feeling confused,
perplexed and even depressed.
sometimes with the help of music or with the help of a good sound sleep they all go back
to universe and you are free again with your life,Life is again sweet .
I observed all this and came to a conclusion that living in that confusion or perplexion
does not cause as much agony as is caused by this fluctuation of brain between the
thoughts of being happy/being sad.

I dont know what i am sayin but because it is being said to myself,i know the reader(me) will
understand all this in a different swing of mood.
i will be back.
bye

hello myself

 well what to say...this blog i am writing because the life does not give me time to talk to me.
so i created this pointer,i will talk to this site,and this site will talk to me.Truly speaking i m very much inspired from Sushant's blog.But i know this blog is not gonna be one like sushant's.Sushant's is a nice one,
it talks a lot bout human being,while showing sushant's power of view presentation.my Blog will talk only about me.
So it might be quite a selfish blog,whatever......
I can't help it.
I am writing this one.
Dear "Me" stay glued.
I will be back with my real picture.